FAWM: "Hands Held Out"

Hands Held Out

1 day ago by @nwhosings

Hands Held Out

nwhosings

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Liner Notes

#acousticonetake #singersongwriter #personwithpiano #trauma This song, credit where credit is due. Was inspired by both of @ericdistad first songs. I had been feeling stuck on the songwriting front, nothing was flowing, nothing was in progress. I know it's early in FAWM, but that's unusual for me and I didn't like it. So I followed Eric's example and asked myself for the most pressing question, and allowed myself to go dark if that's what was needed. This is what came out. It's about boundaries and what happens to your ability to ask for help when you grew up internalizing your needs as burdens on your parents. It's rough because this was recorded less than an hour after getting up and the song came to be in its entirety in about 40 minutes. That's FAWM for you, I guess.

Lyrics

Where do I go From here It's been so many Lonely years

I just got good At saying goodbye Got used to the quiet Now I'm wondering why I lie awake at night

Where do I go From here It's been so many Lonely years

I became fine With being alone No salty demands And no extra handholds But I'm so damn cold

Where do I go From here It's been so many Lonely years

Yeah, Where do I go From here It's been so many Lonely years

There are friends all around But I don't dare reach out Got my feet on the ground I won't be hands held out

Where do I go From here It's been so many Lonely years

Comments

@laurenoxford 5h

the meandering piano part and all the unexpected ways the melody stops and holds on a note really makes listening to this feel like reaching out into the unknown in an attempt to grasp at anything. also wow do i relate to this HARD, oof 🫣🫠

i’m always, ALWAYS in favor of more people going dark to see what comes out. it’s usually something pretty special, imo 🫶🏻

@nwhosings 3h

I'm not usually averse to going dark. It's odd. But I'm having an odd start to the year in general and to FAWM itself. I'm both sorry you relate to this and glad that you could see yourself/your experience reflected back to you.❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

@haloquin 11h

Thank you for sharing the roughness of it, it suits the song. Sweetly sad.

@nwhosings 11h

Thank you, it was hard to give myself permission to let this be with this recording. I'm glad it helps serve the song.

@orinthebard 12h

Oofff, the liner notes speak to me. I hope we can all get better at reaching out, because we can't have community on our own. Beautiful soaring melodies & piano arpeggios. Glad the creativity is flowing for you 💙

@nwhosings 11h

Me too. FAWM is a place where I feel able to practice reaching out and being part of community. Thanks for being part of it!

@smudge 12h

Very real ...can tell right away...so pretty...love the vulnerability, honesty and the lyrics...for example, I love the line "Im so damn cold". The music really serves the song as well. Thank you for sharing. Cheers, Smudge

@cathymc 1d

Oh, so relatable. Beautiful lyrics and I love the ethereal sound of the piano, which suits the lyrics so well.

@chill4matt 1d

This is a wonderful song that sticks with you.

@alyxanderjames 1d

Oof, this is gorgeous and tender and vulnerable, and I think the early morning voice actually adds to that. Learning how to have both boundaries and needs sure is a trip, huh?

@nwhosings 1d

Such a trip. Healing can be heavy work

@leslie333 1d

This is really beautiful - I really like the way you hold the words for so long and the piano accompaniment is perfect for the words.

@mahtowin 1d

Yes, that‘s FAWM to me! A rough recording for sure but full off energy … yes, and sadness. I can relate to a lot in your vulnerable lyrics! Thanks for your honesty! The piano has something comforting to me.

@nwhosings 1d

Thank you. I'm glad the energy came through. It's hard to tell sometimes when I still have fog brain.