Goodness I have had a simply terrible time trying to record this one, with the production just absolutely not coming together. Putting it out as lyrics so I can at least come back and add the music later. My apologies.

This is mostly autobiographical, but with influence from some webcomics and a whole lotta other trans girls with eerily similar stories.

CW: Transfemme perspective and desires, not intended to represent non-binary or trans-masc people who very much do not wish for these things.

Do you fall asleep wishing you could change and wake up as a girl maybe if you wished upon a star or said your prayers at night Do you wonder if your family would notice something new would their memories of you still remain or just vanish with the light?

While you lie there pondering While your mind is wandering You know it’s an idle dream You’re a boy you’re well aware you may as well fly through the air why keep pulling on that seam

Though you look the same as all the other guys You always feel a bit like you’re wearing a disguise You’ve studied how men walk and what they say But what if you could be a girl instead every day

Have you worn a dress that felt so good but you had to take it off while you bemoan men’s lack of style, being only blue and black Have you thought “I can’t transition, I’d just look the same but uglier” but you would push the button to become a girl and not look back

While these thoughts consume your day While they just won’t go away You know it’s an idle dream You’re a boy you’re well aware you may as well fly through the air so why does it really seem

that you look the same as all the other guys but always feel a bit like you’re wearing a disguise You’ve studied how men walk and what they say But what if you could be a girl instead every day

You don’t think your life is awful there’s so much to be happy about it’s just with those groups of dads you feel weirdly like you’re left out spending the next several days filled with confusion and self-doubt

cause you look the same as all the other guys but always feel a bit like you’re wearing a disguise Knowing there might be another way You think it might be time to be a girl every day