FAWM: "Hey, Can I Call You? (For B.)"

Hey, Can I Call You? (For B.)

5 days ago by @nwhosings

Hey, Can I Call You? (For B.)

nwhosings

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Liner Notes

#queer #lovesong #acoustic #personwithpiano #onetake #jazz Okay. I can do this. FAWM is a good place to do this. I never thought I would write a song like this, but then I had therapy yesterday. cue relatable laughter I don't show my queerness much in my everyday life. I don't usually examine that too closely, but it's been feeling suffocating. From the outside my life looks very hetero-normative. I look very femme. My partner is my legal spouse and he is a cis-man. But on the inside, it is a very different story. It's scary to take practical steps that will reveal how different I am on the inside to how I appear on the outside, but I really want to take those steps.

Lyrics

Hey, can I call you? I know it's been a while You've been goin' through changes Do they show in your smile?

Hey can I call you? It's been such a long time But I'm sippin' at mem'ries Like they're my favourite wine

There were whispers of kisses Cuddles on a blue couch Invitations and hints at What I could do with your mouth But I shied, scared of freedom I felt like I'd be found out By all the ghosts in my closet I didn't know still hung out

Hey, can I call you? I just thought you should know I've been regretting some choices From our dance long ago

Hey, can I call you? This is hard to just say But I wish I had kissed you After breakfast that day

I miss whispers of kisses Cuddles on that blue couch Invitations and hints at What I could do with your mouth But I shied, scared of freedom I felt like I'd be found out By all the ghosts in my closet I didn't know still hung out

Shame is a bastard He's a sneaky house-guest I've kicked him to the curb But I gotta do it again Yeah, shame is a bastard! He's a sneaky house-guest I've kicked him to the curb But I gotta do it again

I'd like to whisper some kisses Cuddle on your new couch Respond to that invitation Of what I can do with your mouth I'm not so scared of freedom Even if we might be found out I found the ghosts in my closet And I let them all out

Hey, can I call you? I know it's been a while You've been goin' through changes I'd like to see them in your smile

Comments

@benlzebub 3d

Oh my your words hit with devastating effect. This is so beautiful and thoughtfully done, really telling a story. I like the imagery of shame being a sneaky house guest - so true. And super piano playing too.

@fabkebab 3d

Oh this is beautiful - Your high-note piano work creates a slightly creepy sound to the piece and then your vulnerable/powerful singing and lyrics just pull me right in - I am bookmarking this one to listen to again. Fabulous job. This is an unmistakeable personal song for you, but it is a song about deep human longing that transcends any one experience. Lovely

@sadcoolgirl 4d

thank you for being so vulnerable. the lyrics are so powerful and so is your story. i hope you find your inner peace and path soon. in the meantime, this is a perfect track to encompass the depth of your emotions. the piano is gorgeous and your vibrato is chilling!

@alyxanderjames 5d

This is a brave and powerful song, friend! Shame is a bastard, indeed, and so sneaky. I hope writing this was as cathartic for you as listening to it is for me. The lyrical shifts in the last chorus have me tearing up over here. 💜