Biggest Loser
by @tspoon
Liner Notes
#darkfolk #acousticonetake #problemgambling Since watching the Superbowl and also the news of the gambling scandal in the NBA, I have become alarmed at the proliferation and normalization of gambling everywhere. And especially the stories of problem gambling and how it is as destructive as any addiction. This issue hit my family many years ago as my dad struggled with it. Coincidentally this month marks the 20th anniversary of my Dad's passing. Fortunately, he got help and my dad was able to stop and was in recovery the last several years of his life. This story song came from this experience. It got dark kind of quickly - bad memories.
Lyrics
The men at the table peer at their cards The night has been kind to me so far I take a chance and I say I’m all in but as it happened, I do not win
Stumbling home, I look at the sky I know the answer, but I ask God why I can’t win but I got to keep trying My wife at home can only sit and cry
Refrain I’m a gambler and I'm on bad streak I aint won, in many a week But if I got a chip, and I got a chair I’m going to keep playing, and I don’t care For I am the biggest loser that ever drew a pair
My chips are down, and my luck left town I get a ten and so I double down I’m busted flat, and I’m asked to leave I wander out and sit by the trees
There was a time, when I could not lose I cleared the tables, and drank the free booze Crowds would gather to watch and cheer now I’m in the street with no one near Refrain
looking at my options, and its desperate times I never done a thing you could call a crime I wait outside my house for my wife to sleep I grab her ring and I’m back on the street
Down to the pawn shop I did run I hate myself and what I done I take the cash and heads back to the den for another shot at it but I still can't win
Comments
I’m blown away by the availability of it all too. I knew a guy in Vegas who would gamble all day long on his phone while at work and then hit the bars where they’d give you free drinks if you kept playing after he got off. When I asked him about how to play online, he said, do yourself a favor and just don’t. Sad story here, and sorry this addiction touched you and your family. I wonder if it was therapeutic for you to write this song. You did a great job capturing the addiction and all of the emotions and hard realities it brings up. I’m so glad your dad came out the other side.
This is tragedy on a Shakespeare scale. Such a sadly common tale, told with courage and compassion.
I can hear how heartfelt this. It really moved me. I’m glad something beautiful came from something so destructive ❤️
Man, you're on fire with the story songs this year. I like how the narrator gets to stretch out across several verses to tell the details from his life, all the while knowing he's got a problem that he can't stop. I felt the same way as you seeing the ads on the Super Bowl, it was really in your face. Of all the vices it appealed to me the least but I can understand its addiction.