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Started this song during 50/90 a couple years ago, finished it now. It’s about the time in my life when I was separated from my wife and working through my enmeshment issues. Sometimes you gotta marry yourself first before you can be married to someone else

Pain is a lighthouse That shows me where to go All the harbors That need to be known And I'm wrecked on shoals But I lived to tell the tale I am learning

Pain is a city With blaring lights It's not pretty But there's truth inside In the museum Of everything failed I am learning

Each sunset is a new chance to die Pulling over to see buzzards crouching on the roadside And the flowers gone to seed I lay in funeral arrangement With my salted heart cuz I am the one who protects it I am learning

How to die How to die

Pain is compass That shows me where I've been Where my backpack’s tight And I need to soften Where I carry too much Instead of asking a friend I am learning

Pain is a cutlass And I was the knight Who liked to charge through the desert Proclaiming I'm right Til I cut myself On my own hot air I am learning

Each sunset is a new chance to die So I'm dropping sunburned clover and queen anne's lace in piles And the spiny purple thistle stabs me on the way down To the ditch where the dog circles it as it drowns I am learning

And the Morrigan’s sitting her throne Bony fingers on the butterflies carved into the stone King of Swords because I finally digested myself Red and blue robes and my boundaries ringing like bells I am learning

How to die How to die

And the only thing that died was my dignity I'd do it again I’d do it again Because the only way to strengthen the steel Is to break it again And again and again and again

Pain is a pyre Cuz to sacrifice Is to make sacred And that is the price We are tallow and string And burn our whole lives I am learning

Each sunset is a new chance to die Overhead the buzzards stalking me continue to fly And the flowers gone to seed I lay in funeral arrangement With my salted heart cuz I am the one who protects it I am learning

And the Morrigan’s hand on my neck I'm remembering the buckets of baby's breath 4 of Wands because I finally married myself Red and blue robes and my boundaries ringing like bells I am learning

And the only thing that died was my dignity I'd do it again And I'll do it again Because the only way to strengthen the steel Is to break it again