FAWM: "No Unknowing"

No Unknowing

6 days ago by @spinhead

Liner Notes

Over the past 6 months I have realized some things, remembered some things, and discovered some things, that pushed me out of reality for a little while. My Best Beloved, my spirituality, and a psychiatrist and two count 'em two therapists are helping me back.

I'm so very tired of talking about my mental health and I can't stop talking about my mental health.

But in the past, when the hard things came out to music they hurt a bit less.

#ukulele #strings #sad #slow

Lyrics

it slipped in while I wasn't looking it drifted through the window in my sleep I felt it long before I knew it and I haven't known it yet it's far too deep

it's coming there isn't any choice it floats up near where I can see it touches in places I'm afraid of and it feels like I'm not really me

I wish I knew how to make it leave me I didn't know it was even there and now I wish that I could just unknow it and I wish that I could just not care

but it slipped in while I wasn't looking it drifted through the window in my sleep I felt it long before I knew it and I haven't known it yet it's far too deep

Comments

@mikedebenham 1d

This is beautifully expressive, Joel. The simple, honest lyrics, along with the desolate uke and strings, cut right to the heart.

Sorry to hear about the rough year. It's hard to work through these things but I have hope that you'll emerge stronger for it, my friend.

@spinhead 16h

always nice to hear your thoughts, sir. I'm getting loads of support and doing the work, so most days I can still see the sun on the horizon.

@sophielynette 2d

I very much understand what you mean about being tired of talking about your health and yet not being able to stop talking about it.

There is a gentle, resigned sadness to this song. I like the sparseness and the strumming of the uke.

@spinhead 2d

thank you. it's nice to hear that someone understands.

@oldlostjohn 6d

I've said it before, how much I like the honest frailty of your voice. Knowing you've been throgh some pretty hard times it feels even more poignant. And those strings add even more depth.

@spinhead 6d

I am always glad to hear your thoughts on my work, good sir.

I hesitated with the strings, but I thought, oh be obvious this time ;)