A song about mistakes, my ex-best-friend, and parenting.
I AM NOT A MONSTER
I CAN'T BE THE MONSTER
I WON'T SEE THE MONSTER
INSIDE THIS A MONSTER
DON'T WANT BE A MONSTER
I AM NOT THE MONSTER
I'll settle down with something
I won't see nothing
I promise I won't make mistakes
That I see other people make
They're not for me
I can't make every one.
I'm not entitled to that
And then when I'm older
Well past my best years
I won't think
"It's not the same, it's not the same, it's not the same"
Don't get me wrong, my life will really never be the same ever again. Not like it was with you. It will be forever changed.
I'll just learn to prefer it... That way
But it's not coming naturally
Not coming naturally
I promise to live my life
With the intent of being in spite
Of every way I treated you
I don't need you to see
Even if it was you I'm always botherin'
shits gotta be better than fatherin'
Or at least how I expect it to be.
And if I meet someone who's more of a convincer
Than the first few months after I kissed her
I'll make sure to be
A better father than mine
Just as he was better than his.
I'll continue the line, the lineage.
Or I won't.
I don't know if I have what it takes
To make a life that follows mine great
Without passing my damage on in collateral
It wasn't you who convinced me of that.
I swear it wasn't you who convinced me.
I want to love you until I die.