I think this is one of the best, if not the best, songs I've written this year.
Obviously, this song is about the sorry state of FAWM being largely dormant from March to January. I learned this first hand in 2018, when I commented on approximately 200 songs well after the challenge ended (I hit 200 in October, and naturally received little to no fanfare). That said, this song is not in any way meant to disrespect the community; I'm merely stating my opinion.
The music was largely recorded using virtual instruments on Mixcraft 8. The bass, drum and guitar tracks from 2:00 to 4:45 were recycled from my 50/90 2018 piece "I'm Tired", transposed from F# to E minor. The vocals were recorded on my Android phone, and treated with the "slapback" delay effect.
From 4:45 to 6:05, the music changes to B-flat minor and is played in 9/8 time. The transition from E to Bb is a tritone. I cite King Crimson and Pink Floyd's music as an influence on this song.
The opening spoken message and guitar feedback noises were recorded by my mentor Justen Petch. I speak the rest of the messages. The spoken messages were recited verbatim from, erm...a couple of FAWMers (@factorytale and @johnstaples) who had sent messages to me last year.
The message about SoundCloud URLs refers to my viewing some FAWM song pages, and not being able to listen to the SoundCloud links.
The song is sequenced before my track "Communication Lost".
"I'm gonna stop here on the songs. There's no feedback or response, and without that it's hard to find any motivation to continue. I mean, what's the point of making music if no one even listens to it? I'm sorry but I can't find any motivation when no one gives a fuck about your music!"
"February Album Writing Month is a one-month challenge. It has never been intended to be a year-round thing. So, when February ends 99% of participants leave. I have also wished it could stay around longer, but I think a large part of the dynamic is that it is once a year and limited in time. That causes a sense of urgency and a lot of folks participate.
I would advise that you make comments during the challenge. Otherwise no one will ever see them and in January they erase all songs and comments and forum posts to start clean again in February!
If you make comments during the challenge, you will get a whole lot more attention to your songs too! It is a nice side benefit!"
They call it February Album Writing Month
14 songs in 28 days is a real challenge
But then once it's the end of the road
All the participants leave in droves
I won't deny I've interacted with the community
Some of them friendly, others perhaps not so
But how does it feel when no one is there?
It's emptiness that permeates everywhere
I feel I'm the only one still logged on
You know, somebody said to "keep FAWM alive"
For the other 11 months this place is a ghost town
If a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?
"As I have told you a couple of times before...make your comments during the challenge or no one will see them! This site will be erased in January before most folks get back here. So, other than a handful of hardcores who will check in from time to time, your next 100 comments will likely go unnoticed and then be erased. That is just how it works."
"You have not provided a valid SoundCloud URL. Learn more about using SoundCloud players."
"I'm much more famous than you Gerald"
I've got a silver machine, cellos and their minor chords
I'm approaching the end of this peregrination
In the end, who will listen to my creations?
Why, oh why do I give comments
And get nothing in return?
I send out a message, and get no response
At this point, you've long since departed
I don't necessarily expect you to correspond
Sometimes I hold the opinion that no one really gives two shits
Should I bother pushing on or should I just quit?
Open the door, and nobody's there
Reach the top and there's no one to greet you
The carnival's over, all we have are souvenirs
It is so lonely out here
I ain't got nothing left to give
No, no, I ain't got nothing left to give