Colleen: This is our first collaboration. When I read through these lyrics, I knew they would make a powerful song. With Bill’s permission, I massaged his lyrics to work with the tune going through my head. After several takes to try to get this perfect, I decided the whole message of this song is about letting go of perfection to find wholeness....so here you go, with a few mistakes that make me cringe on this acoustic one-take, and my dog’s collar making an appearance at the beginning of the recording....
1. Searching, oh how you have been searching
for a sparkle in your eye
or that rainbow in the sky.
Curtains drawn, oh the sun it never dawns.
If only the voices in your head
called a truce to rouse you from your bed!
I’ve heard you say so many times:
“If only I could convince my mind it’ll be alright!”
Oh, I know you’ve heard it said a thousand times before.
“Don’t you worry—it’ll be all right.”
So much easier said than done.
Every day and every night
It’s a battle you haven’t won.
In this never-ending fight,
Lonely days and sleepless nights,
Never knowing which is real:
What you see or how you feel—
Surrender. Surrender it all. Surrender it all to the Holy One.
2. Holding, oh how you have been holding
to that tempting little lie—
“I can fix it. Let me try
on my own,” never answering your phone;
not seeing that connection
can ease the grip of your depression.
3. Reaching, oh how you have been reaching
out for guidance from above,
trying to find self-love.
Teaching—life’s been so slow at teaching
you God can speak through a friend.
Loneliness is not the end.
It’s okay to say a thousand times:
“I need help to convince my mind it’ll be all right!” Surrender. Surrender it all...
Life gets better—it’ll be all right
No longer must you run.
Don’t you worry—it’ll be all right
These bad feelings can be undone.
We weren’t meant to sit in silence
Sometimes we can turn to science
For the searching of our soul
To give us purpose and control