Once again, another song that was supposed to have vocals, but does not because of lack of time. I didn't even have time to mix it, and I finished the instrumental weeks ago!!!
I don't remember exactly what I was going for with this, but the sound is very different for me. I know I wasn't originally gonna have reverby drums, but then I accidentally applied the same effects of another instrument to the drums and really liked how it sounded, so I went with it.
Like I said, this was supposed to have vocals, and I do know what the song is supposed to be about thematically, and I did start writing lyrics, but I didn't finish. The title is a big hint though.
This is pretty heavy, but basically, I stumbled upon a post from someone on social media that made it seemed like they were gonna kill themselves, and it had been several hours since the post. I did not know this person, but I was following them, and had seen them post come concerning stuff recently, so I felt incredibly guilty for not going out of my way to try and comfort them sooner, so I went and sent them a long message, just hoping they hadn't actually gone through with it.
I felt so weird about it immediately after, like I shouldn't have done that, because I didn't know them personally and I hadn't said anything before, and I was already just not in a good mental state to deal with that from being so mentally exhausted from dealing with my own problems, so it was just an awful spiral of self loathing.
They started posting again later and eventually calmed down after an outpouring of support, but it just felt so weird, and I still don't know if I should've said anything, but I always experience self-doubt so it's hard to tell when I'm thinking logically.