This song is about anxiety and feeling like you wanna get out and be somewhere else. He used to talk about going to New Orleans. Like he always wanted to go. I don't think he ever got the chance. I'll have to make it a point to go in his memory.
The last bit that interjects at the end is something I wrote. Something for someone very special to me. The idea of "basking in the glow." I liked the idea of juxtaposing it in a brighter light than how my dad put it.
i know it seems like i'm always pulling the alarm
but i'm really more together than what i put on
i bask in the glow
of the end of this godforsaken year
an explosion of doubt
a palace and thorny crowns
i'm ready for something else
i wanna see new orleans in the winter
cause it's anywhere but here
i don't know who i'm trying to impress
i guess it doesn't matter but
is it over yet?
(I bask in the glow
of your voice in my head
I loved all our time
We got. It was worth it.)