An old friend hasn't been speaking to me and when I asked why, the answer was confusing. I asked again and it got more confusing and distressing. I finally suggested that maybe we weren't good for each other and should move on to less complicated friendships and they said "Sounds good!" (Including the exclamation mark.)
I've accepted that it's not always me, that I'm not necessarily a blundering oaf socially, but I'm sad today, about this friendship and one I'd wanted to write about this year which gets rolled into this one as part of the same bundle of hurt.
how do you know what someone wants?
what does it take to be loved?
what can you do to make them stay?
who gets to take? who needs to give?
why is it so? when does it change?
what can you do when they've gone away?
how can you see it coming on?
what do you do to see the truth?
who do you trust if not a friend?
why do we bother? what's the point
when does it end? where do you go?
who do you turn to in the end?
and how do you know that's true?
and what can you ever do
to stumble past the last miscue?
how do you move on from two
now they're them and you're you?
I ask cause I don't have a clue